01 / 01: new beginnings

hi. i’m writing to you from the kitchen of the family i’m babysitting for tonight. it’s 9:27 pm on wednesday, june 30, 2021. and i’ve made quite a few decisions recently, something you know is a big deal if you know me at all. saying that, one of those decisions i’ve made is that i’m not going to try and formalize these how i used to. i used to write like i was writing to an audience. and maybe since i am literally writing for an audience you’d think that was a good idea. but what i’ve come to learn is that i only sound like me when i’m writing like me. not when i’m trying to write like a more formal, less stream of consciousness style version of myself. but no more of that. all of my past posts have been archived and i’m starting new. so i’m starting truly as myself. an unfiltered (mostly), writing from the mind, me. because there’s no better way to go about it. and if you don’t like what i put out then you don’t have to read it. but if you’re here for the unadulterated writings of the one, the only, lola claire, then take a seat because you’re not gonna wanna miss this. 

a lot of what i’ve been doing for the past six months is changing. i got runner up for most changed since freshman year, but if you’ve been around for the past six months, you’ve seen me change more then than i had in all four years of high school. some big things happened to me. and when i say big, i mean monumental. but all of those things aside, we are movin on up, people. makin our way in the world one 5’5” step at a time, ladies n gents. 

in the next few months, you’re gonna watch me move to college, start my classes, explore my future home, and probably continue changing (if i’m lucky). because let’s face it, change is a good thing. that’s something that took me a really long time to get down with, but now that i am, oh boy. i’m the biggest advocate for change you’ll ever find. all of the best versions of myself, the best people, and the best things have come to me in times of change. and whether i knew it at the time or not, the pain that might have come with some of these things was nothing compared to the reward i was gonna get in the end. 

all of this is stuff i’m gonna get to in time, trust me. if you’ve ever met me, you know i consistently have quite a lot to say. so, patience, young padawan. we’ll get to everything i have to say at some point, if it’s possible. but this is really just a lil taste of what new lola has to offer. 

she’s similar to all the older versions you may have met, but god, she’s also so much better. 

in some of my next few posts (that i may or may not be writing now, all at once), you’re gonna get some cool thoughts from me, i hope. some of the ideas i’m currently running with are reclaiming music that you stopped listening to because of people / things you associated with it, what it’s like to realize you’re actually finally happy, my version of adulting, probably something relating to coffee or being blonde, and waaayyyyy more. 

i’m very excited. 

and i hope you are too! i’m glad to share my useless ramblings with all those who may be entertained by them, so hopefully you are in fact entertained. 

anyway, get excited guys. we have a lot to cover and a lot to learn and as always, i have a lot to say.

-lola claire :) , june 30, 2021