03 / 02: deja vu

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good afternoon, my love.

today, i write to you from a couch i barely even fit on. i write to you from a sadness begging to be heard. i write to you from a brain much too full for it’s own good. today, i write to you from a broken heart and a growing soul. 

i’ll never be the same again as i am right now. and that continues to be true for each second that passes, on and on and on until you’ve got no more seconds left. and until those dreaded seconds run out, here i’ll be. writing until there’s nothing left, until my seconds stop. 

in this season of change and re-learning myself and all the things my brain likes to harp on, all i can do is write. today’s blog is probably going to be pretty short. i won’t keep you long, but i’ve got something important to share. 

as always, i’m keeping it simple so if you’re just as ditzy as me, you’ll be able to keep it straight in your head. this week, just do what you love. do things that you enjoy just for the sake of doing them. 

for me, there’s a lot going through my head at most times of the day. a chronic overthinker. going on and on and on about things from today, tomorrow, yesterday, and lots of the time, never. and the only thing that has been able to put it all on pause is writing. 

if i’m alone, chances are all my thoughts are faced toward a screen or a notebook and i’m writing down everything, letting it all pour out, feeling everything in a way that doesn’t feel so hard. 

or i’m sitting with my cat watching whatever tv show is my favorite at the time. maybe i’m with my little cousins whose bright little demeanors make everything feel like it’ll be okay. sometimes it’s even just sitting and crying to my mom. 

shopping with sophie. calling louis to check in on ohio. commenting on anna’s instagram posts. going to baton rouge to see mari. calling my dad when he’s on the road. taking long baths and watching movies. drinking a scorching hot mug of coffee at my desk. reading new books. going to coffee shops. 

it’s so easy to do the things you love to do. and it makes the hard things a little less difficult. take it from me, i’m a pro at ignoring the things i’m upset about and this is the way to do it. 

so, for the next few months, you’ll find me doing one of these things and you’ll see me with a smile on my face. 

it’s so simple but it does so much. take a long drive. listen to what your brain and your body need. take that time to let things hurt, but don’t let the hurt take away the things you love. 

you’re gonna be okay. and in the meantime, you’re gonna do things you love. 

the advice is simple. 

just don’t forget to check in on your people. 

hell, check in on people who aren’t your people. 

everyone needs a hug sometimes, even if it’s metaphorical. 

i’ll see you in a week and until then i’ll be writing :)

- lola claire <33